My ex now has a new partner. The Lord in His infinite wisdom has answered my many prayers for Joe's recovery, but as usual - not in the way that I anticipated.
Lord, thank You for the light that reveals even harsh truths to me. I read recently that Truth is more important than facts and how profound this is. How peaceful the path that God has given to me even when it hurts to walk it. In the end we all must walk a path alone. Alone except for Him Who promised never to leave us. How much harder to be a man who has so much trouble communicating with himself. That you wanted to leave me is one thing, man. But that you'd loathe yourself for wanting to, that you'd harm yourself in order to do it - that serves no one.
1 John 1:8-9 8 If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
He is able to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. What comfort. Every one of us needs to step up and admit how much we need cleansing. Lord, take this victim mentality and use all of its power to weaken me and turn it as only You can to strength to do Your will, to finally paint the landscape of my life in Your colors. Yellow is for light, not for cowardice. Green is for growth, not jealousy. Blue is for the beautiful sky - Your promise of eternal life, not for depression. Your light - more brilliant and pure than any earthly experience and Your hand, as gentle as Jesus. To know myself might be a hurtful contemplation. But to know You is solace. You are the strong tower to which my whimpering heart can run.
Love to all,
Ki
Sunday, March 05, 2006
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